circle of lies.

quelqu'un que j'aime...

2011-02-28T00:32:00.003+08:00

hola a tous!

aujourd'hui, j'ai ete tres heureux. parce que je me pense que je peux lui parler de tout. je me pense que je l'aime. (: mais, je suis timide pour lui dire. :x mais, je me pense qu'il sait aussi. parfois, je ne peux pas attendre pour lui voir.

au revoir!

mille baisers,
fasquilani

ma lundi.

2010-11-08T10:32:00.002+08:00

salut. mon cherie. comment cava. aujourd'hui, je veux faire finir lire ma psych chapter14 et revisione pour francais avec jaryl et istilah. j'adore ils! ils sont trop bitchy mais j'adore. baison. apres, je suis faire notes pour ma historie et geog. je ne sais pas quand je peux finir tout. mais je suis a la foi et je apprend je peux realiser succes. NE ALLONS-Y ABANDONNER!

de quelle couleur est ton sac?

je habite maintenant a bukit batok dans une grande maison avec ma famillie. devant, il y a un petite bureau avec quatre fenetre. a gauche, il y a un claire cuisine et un nouveau piscine derriere. j'adore chez moi. et toi?
lalalalala~

iknow this is so random but hecks. im just putting whatever i've learnt into this petite space. et till then! salut! au revoir. (:

2010-11-04T10:11:00.001+08:00

AYONS LA FOI!

2010-11-01T05:17:00.002+08:00

hi. i cant sleep. neither can i do anything that defines work.
so i shall just write smthg here.
hmm. life's actually so simple i realised. it's just a matter of how one handles it. i guess it's just a matter of what you want. if you want it, just go for it. im not quite sure why im saying this but i used to be in a shitty complicated world of my vie. and i hope people can see the simplicity life can indeed be.
on another note, these days i really have some craze thing growing in me towards the bollywood world. which is so weird. haha. andand i really cant wait for holidays to come.<> where i can finally have a bollywood movie marathon (not to forget, gory movies too!), spend more more more lovely time with my famillie (!!!), learn to play harmoc! and i think it's quite obvious already, highlight of sem1 hols-----go laos! after perak hols! yayyy. im finally getting to travel. the last time i did was to where again? The Middle Kingdom and that was such a memorable one. sighhh. <> things in life that comes tgt, and the saying that good things have to come to an end. that sure doesnt sound any good but seriously, if the merriment continues all the way, people will not feel the specialty in it anymore and there will be an even more unappreciative people around.

lastly, i haveeeehave to be succinct in my explanations and learn to not jumble words up. ohyeah let's work towards that! (;
guess it's time to look for more videos. here's my fav french song which is apparently, a nasheed.
it's really refreshing. (:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5Kgn0zn9TnM

script1

2010-10-31T02:46:00.003+08:00

james: Allonz-y mangeons!
ines: Oh la la! J'ai mangee mais je veux manger ces pizzas maintenant.
j: C'est bon?
i: J'adore! Tres bon! Il faut prendre un peu. D'ici.
j: Merci beaucoup. Alors, est-ce que tu as telephone Patrick?
i: Oui, j'ai telephone lui hier et il a compris tout.
j: Tres bien! Ensuite, est-ce que tu as pris le projet de Technoimage?
i: Non, je ne peux pas a pris leur projet car je n'ai pas fini ce projet.
j: D'accord. Alors, ce week-end s'est bien passe?
i: Super! Je suis sortie avec des copains. Samedi soir, on est alles voir Burlsque. Et toi?
j: Je n'ai rien fait. J'ai ete malade. ):
i: Alors, tu te reposes beaucoup?
j: Oui, je (me suis couche/ j'ai dormi) de tout le week-end.
i: D'accord. Il faut repose apres travaille beaucoup. Bon, eh bien. Au revoir. A la prochaine!
j: Au revoir! Bon continuation!

it's so fun ecrite all this. mais i wonder if they make sense.. lol

avec moi

2010-10-27T00:38:00.003+08:00

parle moi
ecoute moi
tu te promene avec moi
faire des courses avec moi
faire du travaille avec moi
prenez-vous avec moi.

je n'ai compris maintenant.
imy.

je voudrais-i wish

2010-10-27T00:37:00.001+08:00

quelle est vie ce deficile. je voudrais je comprends. je voudrais bien aller a la cinema avec des amis, parle tout avec ma famillie. quelle est ce si deficile? je voudrais je peux faire mes amis ecoute moi. sil vous plait. je n'ai pas heure pour leur. quotidiennes, je me leve et je suis mauvaise. nous n'avons pas parle pour quel mois? je voudrais nous allons prend diner et faire du la natation etcetc apres examination. j'aime bien mes amis de ama, shaf, dian, jared, trish, kev, 08a04. ); alors, avons-nous la foi! have faith guys! we're gna meet soon, envidenment.

c'est la vie. xx
mille baisons.

~

2010-05-28T15:10:00.001+08:00

shouldhavegoneee. should have goneeee. lesigh

2010-02-22T14:13:00.000+08:00

love hurts.

trying to stop thinking about it.
bye.

2009-10-24T18:01:00.001+08:00

2009-10-03T02:15:00.002+08:00

x

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xo

idontknow how to edit the damn previous post.

xoxo gossip girls.

2009-10-03T02:14:00.001+08:00

hi.

37

more

days

to

Alevels.

2009-09-25T21:20:00.004+08:00

WOW! there're too cool to be trueeeeee~

Hi! Raya was wonderfulous. and this coming monday is gna be excited i hope?

hahaahha. oheveryone'sbeensayingimfat. );

hateeeee! but anw ohya! today's friday! there's yylove after postit! yayyy! i love the chou nan ren guy. ok actually tts not his name? only ya he acted in tt show called cou nan ren! wheeee.

prelims was a huge monster i wldnt mind cookie monster. but this? ohman. wheresss my spiderman to save me from the hands of the evil devilous monster. ohbutgoodthingissss:

MACHO! while studying(9%)/playing(91%), igot to know machooO! heee. we havent talked but some eye contact. more than some! alot alot! k i sound soooo retarded! heh heh.

SELAMAT HARI RAYA TO ALL WHO PUASA! AND LOVESSSS TO EVERYONE!

FUZZ.(:

theres too much to tell. this is insuffice. i will be back.

2009-08-30T12:37:00.004+08:00

HI! i might not come back here till forever. nah. just few more months. guesso.
heyyyy. bday was awesome. i thought it was gna suck like hell. tt i was prepared for it okay.
but oh heavenly. it turned out really uexpectedly good!! like many prezie. and omgg they were cute and ahhhlovely. hehehe. idk how to explain but i was practically screaming when i re-read all the wishes and scan through all of them back at home. haha! really am not lying. (;
muaaaaaaaamuacksss! i love my friends and family alot. THANK GOD.
can't imagine a life without them srsly esp in this uhsoboringlife kinda thing yknow.
loveloveloveeeee.

btw. ive got myself a new-found boyF besides Na..na..na...gorbie. lol. heeee. and this boyF is like the absolute boyF okay! only um boyF is too pretty. heee. LOVE YA BOYF. what would life be without you.......... heh. i will miss this space. soon. in few seconds. when i log off. ); ); you guys promise to text me if there's anything okay? loveeee. spaisss i <3> ): farewell for now till 2nd dec. ohwait. shall end of with a smile. :D :D :D
then i take another deep breathe.

yours truly.
fuzz.

i love this optimism(:

2009-08-19T02:47:00.002+08:00

lol. i almost got lost here. i thought i forgot my p/w but hahah remembered how i created it.
k anyway. point is.

hi blog.(:
i miss you. do you miss me back? uhh. idk why im like this.
i don't have much time to spend here soooo i've got to ciau in 2 mins?
ya. eh hi. my life hasnt been wonderful or more like disastrous kinda thing?
i used to dread school until like ard the midday today, i realised hello fuzz. you're just left w 2 more weeks? to prelimss. which means just blink and snap the moment ive been crazily looking for- the As. i just got to stay strong right? WE got to.
secondly blog. i'm glad in the midst of this crazy hectic depressing lersighh period, ive found really true great friends around me. i might have killed myself if not for them. srsly. thank god.
guess my 2 mins gna be up in secs... so lastly, guys. now or never. since you've paid for it why not just be determined and brave enough to do your best. whatever the outcome might be, who cares right! like hello. ive tried my best. you think easy ah. ni chi xi lah.(go and die) just no regrets and life still carries on.
moral of the post. simply. don't put your life on hold! continue working! and let god do the worrying.

reminds me to get back to my scarcity gp hw. oh ass. kbye!
thanks hearts.

i hate anything relative to IT-

2009-07-21T22:18:00.003+08:00

when you're at the end of the road... when you're losing control...
bleah bleah bleah. ohlord. i'm having goosebumps. hair standing. literal! i hate ghost stories. whatever about those. damn. now i'm scared of even my bed. my table. imagining something crawling underneath. gosh. this is real freaky. and and i can't be alone. i will imagine it everywhere!!! i'm really scared now. i'm scared. the radio is already on blast. yet i'm hearing silence. and creepy sounds. i hate that damn story. manz. k get over it. get over it. tsk. i CAN FEEL IT! kkkkk i'm not kidding seriously. ah. this post iss eerie. k i'm gna sleep with momz idc. kbai. IM REALLY SCARED. );

a part of life

2009-07-10T21:30:00.003+08:00

this.is.bad. im feeling so sick.unwell.unfit.drowsy.everywhere pain.sneezy.and everything painful.
and im all alone in this room. trying to stay away from my fam. and i still can't get over the fact that my maths result turns out to be so shitty and it is such a heartpain srsly. why is it so. it's not like i didn't put any effort into it. omg. i did more than i'd ever did. imcryingforthepatheticlifeimlivinginnow. it will not be a wonder if THE ALVLS rule the headlines for killing jc kids. when im trying to rest to recover from all these stupid pains im running into, i just can't. i couldn't even sleep well for the worries i have in what's that coming up in approx 3mths or so. this is so depressing. le sigh. whatever it is. when there's life, there's hope. i got to believe in that and i hope all my loves are doing fine. i still remember this quote from charlie(if i'm right): 'life is like an onion; we peel it one by one and sometimes we weep.' so i bet it's pretty normal yeap for people to cry when what they're waiting and working for seems far beyond reach and when basically things turns out just against their own wish. i can't help it but to take this space to throw my feelings. yeap. that's all.

awesome feeling.

2009-07-08T19:30:00.004+08:00

now that exams are finally OVER..... i have another problem.
idk what i should do first! hahaha. i only got like a day off tmr and theres alot to do!
ohhammmjee! i survived midz peeps! a sense of accomplishment! hohoh.
KBAI!!!!!!!!! omg happy go lucky lah sey till friday when results is outz/. ugh k toodles.
i want to hug random people. weird.

2009-07-03T09:13:00.001+08:00

omgggg. pretty amazing right? LOVESSSS~~

ZOFFO ALERT!

2009-07-02T13:32:00.003+08:00

LOOK AT THE MOVES. ALL HAIL.

AWESOME?

this is my first love.

my inspiration. what's yours? (;

falled for you!

2009-07-02T12:58:00.003+08:00

do you scream to yourself often?
I TOTALLY DO!
the boybands are killing my sanity cells! is there such a thing?
who cares. but holyshiats. they're cute. handsome. idk just perfect stylo cooolio godess.
hahahahahaha. k omg. you guys whoever who even reads this should go check out on these guys! superjunior and ss501 and bigbang!!! yes they're koreans! hawt stuffs. lols.
anyone? any suggestions for me to calm down? i'm super high loud and drroooll-ly. k hahahaah byezzzzzz! LOOVEE THEM LOADS. WHAT IF I SEE THEM ONE DAY....

THEN I MIGHT JUST PUT A RING ON THEM (all of them). HOHOH. KBAI.

p.s. sorry for the mental retardness. couldn't help it. OMGGGG!!

feel the fear do it anyway.

2009-06-23T22:45:00.002+08:00

am i gona die soon?
i just got that feeling. prolly the pacing just makes me sick and breatheless?
idk. i cant think. i just need to talk. if it was meant to be this difficult, why are there still people taking this exact path? true. but i just felt...almost drained. the late nights. and isolation for hours.
okokokokok. come on. i have to be motivated. get the spirits up! (;
come on. just 3 freako months and yadah. everything else can wait.
pick yourself up fuzz. and whoever's reading this. move on. give your all.
the rest leave it to god's will.
olah. k im better and i have to get back kicking peeps.
loves~

2009-06-21T22:10:00.002+08:00

o.g. left with a week.and i cant recall whatever i studied for in this hols.
omg. im gna die. srsly. how. idk. ohass. breathe. k i need to calm down.
concentrate. 3months only. kstudy now. ahhhhhhhh........... im not screwed. nono.
bye.

quiet home

2009-06-18T12:30:00.001+08:00

ohmybombs.
I AM SO DEAD BORED.
...
.......
........
....
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................................................................assdgajhif...................
.................bye!

2009-06-17T01:02:00.002+08:00

i need you to feel my pain.
my skin is burnt. and this smokey sensation.
k it's just sunburnt and it's super ugly. tsk.
and due to the pain i cant belarhdy sleep when my eyebags look like zombie's.
and i'm not HAPPY!
i got nagged at for reasons that i didnt know existed.
uh. k. whatever ahhh.
and it's 1am and i've got chores to do. awesome.

okay. on the bright side. the class cip initiated by moi class at spore botanic garden today was a success! TOTALLY. the kids were angels. and made me want to have those but having to go through the whole pregnancy process and marriage thing is too serious and scary. anyway that's another thing. they're really fun! sighhh. i'm starting to missssss them ttvvvm now already. yeahhh. haha. but. there's this one member in my group who is so bitchy but maybe because she's under-priviledged hence she's abit greedy and overprotective? idk. but i'll totally remember them. especially this sab girl's line, "kbye. seeyou next year." hahaha. klah this is boringggg.

LOVES.

the lib movie guy. where are you~~~

2009-06-10T23:16:00.003+08:00

high! (:

now, i feel like playing arcade or some real life thrills on the roller coaster.
when i'm so tired...
how i wish i could feel history now. like how all the world wars and tensions came about. why economies this and that. and why the parties involved just have to act that way. you know like study them. not just argue on the origins. and whatnot effects etc. i want to talk about the characters. haha.
knvm.

glad i found you.
you-know-who. (HAHA-inside joke)
nighto.

life is great afterall~

astalistfe

2009-06-03T23:08:00.003+08:00

love hate bye. hi.

there are many things i want to get off my chest lately but i just couldnt find the right time to do it. well. it concerns about many things. how sad that i have to give up a friendship which have been bonded for the past six years. and besides, studies. and everything. it just bothers me.

but for now, i'm just constantly going to remind myself why bother. why get myself all so emotional and heartbroken. and losing hope. and trying hard to fix back my past puzzle when in actual fact i have to look forward and move on. why bother. just oh shit wth and carry on.

well. maybe i always thought i've been lucky. to have really many good friends around, fabbbb family. and all i need to do is share the joy and meet more new people. when only now. only now. that it hits me. that it isn't just like that. there's more. but i'm lazy to elaborate here. hahah. cosss let's look at the greener side! treasure what you have now.

oh BTW.
does anyone knows where to get a kite?
i need to fly a kite soon badly. it's like a wake-up from sleep kind of mission that you must accomplish. k idk how and why. but i think i dreamt about myself joining a kite flying competition that as soon as i woke up there's this sudden urge of FLY KITEEEE! hahah.

next. it's almost a week gone from the hols but it hasn't felt anything like a hol at all! instead. it feels more stressful and a very much hectic week compared to the typical school days. ohgosh. can you imagine. i ACTUALLY mugged for maths! for 3 days 2 nights! still. sadly. i couldn't do part of the paper. my pure still sucks like shizzzel. oh but i can still work on that right? there's never too late for anything fuzzzzz. i'm sounding sooooo william. lols.

can't wait for siloso, bird park, and kite flying!!
k whatelse. till then. BYE!

loves.
"Believe that life is worth living and your belief will help create the fact." William James.

wake up till october ends?

2009-05-23T23:32:00.003+08:00

i'm in loveeeee
with jumpshots!
loveloveloveloveeeee.
BTW. i h8 kev. for saying i'm ugly.
buhuhuuu. haha. my apologies.
i'm alil' sick in mind after looking at all the ns guysssss.
hahahaha lolsss.
moniiiiiii i sooooo misssss youuuuu.
where are you. and i miss kampong.
BTW yifang you dont bully me ah later i tell my new bf. lol.
BTW omsss. my photo is like everywhere in the school doors!
k i saw one, an A4 size pic. oml. thanks to amolino.
kloVES! whoots~

((:

2009-05-22T20:35:00.002+08:00

OMBB!
boys over flowers made me fall all in love back into the kdrama world.
ohkbai.

this is so sick. but no i'm not emo!

2009-05-19T22:51:00.002+08:00

i'm belardeee sleepy now. like my eyes are open and my hands are typing words but i felt like as if i'm sleeping? idontknow lahhhh. wth is wrong with me. ugh. and why is everyone stuck with the coolstuff.com virus?! i'm so pissed now. stop sending me those!

okkkkkk

i

think

i
can
do this
now.

i'm going to complete atleast the intro of
my thesis before i sleep.
oh shucks which means around 300words?
before i'll get close to bed.

well. bye. these recent posts are all so redundant.
this is my life now. soyea.
nighto dear.

crazy sheese.

2009-05-11T20:25:00.002+08:00

note to self:
first of all, i must never ever make an attempt to text gorbie ever again.
second, i must start doing work like seriously now.
third, don't fall for younger guys.
hahah.
going gambola after another 6 months.
thus, persevere for now.
bye darlings.
you dont know how much i miss y'all.
sigh. and. smile again.
lol.
takecare!

the reality.

2009-04-26T19:55:00.002+08:00

i got to be strong.
overcome the fear.
do it once and do it well.
to hell with the bloody cts.
changing for the better.
i'm going to do this.
i love you and myself.
thank you god.
LOVES.

do wishes really come true?

2009-03-15T15:46:00.003+08:00

when it ameliorates. i'll come back.
not running away.
just wait for me.
i got to toughen up.
and believe there's that rainbow awaiting.
that's it.
love y'all.

don't predict your future. invent it.
longing for freedom.

i deprive of watching movies.

2009-03-07T22:57:00.003+08:00

Richard Chase - The Vampire of Sacramento
Richard Chase earned the nickname "The Vampire of Sacramento" after brutally killing six people, including a child and an infant, then drank their blood and ate some of their organs.

ewwww. i still remember a story of this man selling curry out of human body parts and people loved them. ew?

yesterday was like a roller coaster emotional day. early in the morning everyone was so happy because it was p.e? er not exactly but atleast it wasn't running or some fitness. and andddd it was our first time the whole class wore our new class tee. "who got class---(at the back)08A04 we've got class." hahah. our CTs looked like they're wearing couple shirts. haha. ohyea. then i went to meet up with the 09A04 ACM and he was kinda cute. like an actor with smooth hair and flwless face. omgggeez but he's like 2years younger? no-no!

next came the depressing part of the day. the release of the A level results. ohman. for those who've done well, congrats you are really a genius like srsly. but for those who aren't satisfied with their results, there should not be any sense of regret. just got to accept it. and think of where to head next. at least you still have the love from family and friends. it wasn't easy at all. and it's not the end to life.

....same goes for me. i got a buhlardy B for my malay As and i just didn't know how i was supposed to feel. like i'm not satisfied with it but at the same time i felt relieved it was over. i just hope that my project work results will not kill my motivation for the rest of my subjects. look ahead and be the next pjc top student. hahah. i just need to get myself into my course in the uni and i'll be jumping up high.

intensive dance practices are starting to be the next top killer in the list. it's damn tiring but i'm grateful to the whole bunch of dancers who are great people! totally love them! they are uber cuteness. jsyk we are dancing using the coolest song ever! hahah.

i love my bitches.
i'm hungry.
nights.

like that magnet attraction.

2009-03-02T20:43:00.002+08:00

he was too close to me.
and i was trying to act cool.
then he was all so cute.
omg i am very serious!
and his voice was all so man.
hahah. ok i am supa.crazy.
oh how i wish that 2 hours was extended a bit more longer.
see you again~
LOVEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE....

beat it.

2009-02-26T20:56:00.003+08:00

ohdear.
gorbie was badly injured. and hello? im kinda unhappy here. like what's up with them. took photos with almost everyone in it except gorb. ))))))))));
k i just dont know what's wrong with me.

anyway i hate people who can run 2.4. dayum. like 2.4km within 10minutes? i so seriously ugh feel like killing them? idk lah. why is this entry so resentful. k hulahula.

went out the past weekends. hahah. and im still waiting for the photossss. hello posh? and i donated blood yesterday! ((: photos shall be uploaded soon.

wheeeee~
guess that's all for now.
xoxo.

-i need to RANT-

2009-02-21T19:52:00.003+08:00

OHMEGOSH.
mother is so freaking annoying.
i totally cant stand her nagnagnagggging.
gosh. help me ohgod.
i'm already so tired and head spinning nonstop.
ughhh get away.
i'm so sad. buhuhuuu.
kbai.

-there's just so many things to do.
with so little time left. screwed?-

thanks to the captain

2009-02-08T23:08:00.003+08:00

MY NEW VOCAB...
TAGALOG ---> ENGLISH
ASWANG = MONSTER
KIRIKIRI = ARMPIT
MABAHU = SMELLY
BABUI = PIG
GEMAI = SMALL
BOTITI = BLOWFISH

Laugh and the world laughs with you.
Cry, and the world laughs harder.

TOTALLY IN LOVE.
with feb.

sentosa tmr morng yet i'm still awake.

2009-01-24T02:03:00.003+08:00

OMG.
can someone help me?
i have this scary stalker. i can't sleep cos i'm having nightmares of him.
seriously. i need help. counselling. whatever.
anyway. i think it's either i've been thinking too much lately or it's just the truth.
my sec bestie is like avoiding me? or forgetting me? bigsigh.
maybe i should get maself busy and stop thinking about random stuffs nimore.
i just can't sleep. and i hate to look at this pervertic guy in school whom people claims
'he is cute!' or 'like justin sia'. gosh! he is v.ugly and ew disgusting look.
i hate running.
i need to think of smthg to start a conversation with gorbie. ((;
ANYONE?

xoxo.
fuzz.

wonder when will my next post be.

2009-01-21T21:54:00.003+08:00

i.dont.know.what.to blog.about.

anyway. call me crazy or what but in this mentally and physically challenging year (haha), i'm taking part in pj indian dance syf. hahaha. omg damn cool i tell you. even though i get frequent headaches from the dance steps but it just helps to destress ourselves. somehow. probably due to the 40% of time peeping at the field. heh. school is really tiring with my torturous time table that ends earliest at 4? kay let's not complaint anything anymore.

let's look at what's coming up next...
-CNY hols=more hws=more tests after hols=more things to catch up on.
-V day=friendship day=idk sit at home study=meet up with wahid probably.
-??? tests. tests. and more tests? hahahaha.
-...
-...
-As finally.
-As over!
-!!!

hahaha. i think i'm weird and random for this but maybe i'm just tired.
class tee design in my opinion is not cool. kay sorry but yes i dont like it.
atheens is our new cm. (:
our new cts are totally cute.
oh my introduction of maself: 'i love to run. i don't like looking at guys'.
kay best. i am really random but i'm just getting sick of the proper serious talks and the need to organise my stuffs. so sorry for this eh.

i want to go concerts!!! i want to be in a band. haha kay i'm srsly sleepy now.
ok bai.
misses to monica.
misses to shaf.
LOVES TO ALL. :D

depends on how you read it.

2009-01-17T22:58:00.004+08:00

dear friends.
i'm back! and i survived my first week as a j2 in peejay.
gosh. it totally sucks. but anw fun cos idk tried to crack some jokes and hangouts with my huns and bazhang and everyone kay.

watched the rugby match yest. kinda cool. i missed the atmosphere like i used to watch the ruggers in my primary and secondary schools. kay anyway. there's nothing much to talk about. except that my new gp teacher is funny. haha and interesting. haha ok yes. i got to go before that i shall post some photos from my splat huddle camp. it wasnt boring as what i thought it was gona be. we had interactive workshops. haha and amazing race, art competition, visiting the prisons etc. yea so enjoy.

splat is basically an org to help ex youth convicts or youth-at-risk to fit in back into the society.

kbye.

loves! (:

smile!

2008-12-31T22:06:00.002+08:00

good bye 2008!
welcome 2009!

2008 has brought many-many-many wonderful memories that will never ever be forgotten. ok, to keep it short and sweet here is the list of all the 2008 best moments in my life lah seh. bahahaha. (:

*To be in PJ with all the subjects i love and the coolest class 08A04 rocks.rawks.rules. whatever ttm. ARTS subjects are the best. yadayanalala. idk i'm just so excited? haha.

*To get to know MONICA CHEUNG! my best darl! she's just sooooo awesome. kay thank god i know her during orientation or i'll not try to love peejay. but she had to leave. so again thank god there's high technology and all that we can still comunicate. <3<3<3 and more <3s! haha.

*my chewychewy! (mina, chris, diane, shiaf, patricia) they make my days in school so happening and crazy. we biatch. emo. do stupid stuffs. see hamburgers. and all. omgawd. without them i'll die everyday ok. totally(!!!!!!) i so loveee my huns.

*shamonkeys still alive and forever will. parties. and talks. and haha games. and idk whatsoever that we did just among us make life so great and all. ahhhh im crapping. but they are like my pillar. always there supporting me. thank you loves.

*the process. the hardships. challenges. everything that 2008 have brought on for me. pw days that totally sucks. still memorable. idk if i can ever forget that. haha. and how to make friends all over again. the new environment. everything.

*the super great year-end holidays i had!!!! shop. shop. shop. outings. museums. parties. meetups. obs. china. malaysia. sleepovers. best! best! extremely the best hols ever. i think i did almost everything. even to go-kart and horse riding. gosh. (:

ok so here comes 2009 in a few hours time. BRING IT ON.
and i shall leave a quote:

"do not look back and grieve over the past for it's gone.
do not be troubled about the future for it has yet to come.
live in the present and make it sooooo beautiful that it will be worth remembering!"

manymanymanyyyyyyyyyyyLOVES to everyone!
(:

mud the BARKERS! (;

2008-12-21T12:27:00.005+08:00

Some picts on my OBS. the BARKERS. i miss them. and charlie. buhuhuhuuuuuu. );

(hiroki and joseph!)

the guys who were our heroes back then.

see?

so unglam pict with clifford.

barkers by the pool.

to serve to strive and not to yield.

and us AGAIN!

fyi. i am in most of these picts. mostly wearing orange top with black cap. bahahaha.

ok whatev. kbai.

untitled?

2008-12-21T00:00:00.002+08:00

Since the day that we met girl
I aint never had anyone make me feel this way
And my heart is sure it wants to be with you
Wanna to give you the whole world oh
If you make the promise to me, I'm gonna stay
Without you guiding me, I'm lost and so confused
What will it take to show you I'll be by your side
Girl I got you and I want to give you what you never had
Girl everyday I hope to make you part of my life
Cause you know me and I know you
girl your love is where it's at ohhh...
I'm gonna be the love that's gonna last
And be the one that got your back
Ain't nothing never that bad that we would be together
And though we both made our mistakes
And some we never wish we made
But we'll be okay if we just stay together
Oooh.. I know he left you stranded
And you paid the price when you messed up your life
oh girl I know you're so afraid
But I can't write the wrongs she did
I know you saw the lipstick on my window
And wonder how many chick's been to my home
I've done my share of playing games
But for you I given up that life
What will it take to show you I'll be by your side
Girl I got you and I want to give you what you never had
Girl everyday I hope to make you a part of my life
Cause you know me and I know you
Girl your love is where it's at ohhh...
I'm gonna be the love that's gonna last
And be the one that got your back
Ain't nothing never that bad that we would be together
And though we both made our mistakes
And some we never wish we made
But we'll be okay if we just stay together
Baby you're the one I've waited for
Because you gave me what I need and more
Girl its clear that we are meant to be
Together, We should be together
Eternally Ohhh...
girl I'm gonna be the love that's gonna last
And be the one that got your back
Ain't nothing never that bad that we would be together
And though we both made our mistakes
And some we never wish we made
But we'll be okay if we just stay together
I'm gonna be the love that's gonna last
And be the one that got your back
Ain't nothing never that bad that we would be together
And though we both made our mistakes
And some we never wish we made
But we'll be okay if we just stay together

joy to the world. my song for now. emonemo. if only you could sing this for me. boo. just my wishful thinking.
together- ne yo <3

hairpee.HAPPY!!!

2008-12-19T01:22:00.005+08:00

PARTEEEE! turned out to be like one of our meetings. haha. simple but too sweet. heh. seee the real nice and so loved oreo-cheese cake! made by cheryl. with love! and handle with care. by me. (: then we got the super extra spicy but damn yummy fried rice. hahahaha. man i remember the days we picnic-ed in classrooms and mas will never forget to bring this. heh. (: LOVES!

THEN......

we played UNO STACKO? after haha other stupid games.

look i can still smile and not look when pulling out those.

when some people idk why have to try so hard....

BUT STILL......

so the loser have to make random calls to one of our friends (must be CUTE) that the loser doesnt know. HAHAHAHA. damn priceless! ok but i didnt get to hear cute guys' voices since um you know it's like so hard for me to lose. tsktsk.

so after that....

EMO by the water because the real ariel (me) forgot her swimsuit.

RANDOM SHOTS aka sexynaughtybitchy pose.

hahahahaha! TOTALLY-NOT!

and finally!

anddddd us! SHAMONKEYS! haha!

LOVELY! 5years++ of friendship and till death brings us apart?

haha! i still remember how some of us first knew each other. (:

MUCHLOVE,

fasquilani. (hahahahaha)

JUST DANCE lah

2008-12-17T01:11:00.010+08:00

the china trip was all so awesome. so much fun
and wonders discovered. and of course great photos and friendship bonded along the way.there's just too many things to talk about. from changi airport to shanghai to chongming island to nanjing and back at singapore. let the photos do the talk yea? best experience of moi life.

SHANGHAI for now. (:
enjoy!

model of the cities in SHANGHAI. coolio!

LOL face with alviss. and superstar pose with nic ninja. (:

CRUISEEEEEEE! iLIKE!

some high tech place(forgot the name). archery with robots.

DINNER at another restaurant with dancers.

SHANGHAI ORCHARD ROAD

TONY aka Tiger rawrr! i miss him); he's so cute! i wrote him a farewell letter before he left us for home to his wife. )): oh and that is the pollution photo. ewewewwww.

NEAR BAOSTEEL(25kmsq!)

goodnight pose?

DINNER at some restaurant.

us: ass, me, vivian and hui han, with mr chan and mrs tan. you can see how high it is. the famous blue monster found everywhere in shanghai.

SHANGHAI ORIENTAL PEARL TOWER

the lecture that is all in chinese. two friendly scholars from singapore. both principals. and bikes to run from lessons to lessons.

FUDAN UNIVERSITY

CHANGI AIRPORT

Outward Bound has not ended. It just started.

2008-11-23T20:20:00.004+08:00

HELLO EVERYONE!
IM BACK! ALIVE AND STILL KICKING! WOOOTS!
Completed OBS and it was such a great experience!
FUN! Tiring but AWESOME!

THANKS to my amazing groupmates.
JOSHUA: the BEST MEDIC anyone can find whom never fails to look after the welfare of every single one of us anytime anywhere.
GRACE and SUNING: for being my BEST TENT PARTNERS, good listeners and a place to share deepest secrets with(haha) and create codes and etc man.
NANDHINI: for being the ONE and ONLY INDIAN in the group and also part of our alliance plus for her special watch.
SAM: for being CRAZY with me and haha lame jokes at times.
VINCENT: for being the BEST FOOD IC(besides Ernest), always there thinking of ways to improve the food and so to not have us all starve.
CINDY, BAO XIAN and LESTER: for being the BEST HELPERS secretly without complaining they tried to help out in every ways.
WAN RU: for being the most ENTHU girl? she loves to laugh.
YUPING and JOSEPH: for being the BEST SEA EXPEDITION ICs and never gave up in the super tiring process.
ERNEST: for being THE BIG BROTHER for all of us. STRONGEST man whom when he is there, we have no more fears. get it? someone who can give us all the confidence.
CLIFFORD: for being our CAMERAMAN. and my partner in counting days for the 5 days to be over. haha.
RICHARD: for his CUTENESS? haha. and intriguing personality. he has a fan club. woah.
and not to forget..
CHARLIE/ISKANDAR: our MORE THAN JUST INSTRUCTOR. idk how to describe him in other words but yea without him, our barker may just always be in the storming stage and never could have perform or survive it through. he made everything all went off smoothly and so we are all back alive! (:

With them all plus myself. We make up the mother barkers.
We are the BEST barkers group. faced live and death together.
the wild mosquitoes bites, height fears, endurance through carrying the heavy bags for land expedition and dirty mud with crabs and everything during sea expedition(around 6am-6pm of both?) add on to the food we just had to force them through our throats and sleeping in tents wasn't fun at all when your body aches.
it definitely wasn't easy at all but we managed to survive the 5 days through.
such a great experience with strong bonds of new friendship and trust we had for one another as our lives depends on one another. them as our belayers and supporters when you felt like you were gona die. seriously that was how i felt when i couldn't swim and all.(still, my favourite activity was the JETTY JUMP!)

ok guys. photos soon when i receive them alright?
I have to go pack my luggage for china trip in 2 days time!
idk if im excited or what but yea see you all soon!
i would end my post with my favourite quote from OBS;

'when you're home, you wish for an adventure.
but when you're in an adventure, you wish to be at home.'

how true!
ADIOS! MUCHLOVES!

2008-11-16T21:46:00.002+08:00

i am so not looking forward to obs tomorrow.
hopefully. it's not gona be as bad as i'm picturing it.
saveeeeee meeeeeeeeeee.
see you
in 5days.

i always want to touch my body. -.-

2008-11-14T23:17:00.012+08:00

dear friends.
maybe if life could take pauses then it would be best right.

then i would pause it for it is now.
when i'm lazing on bed watching dramas non-stop.
or when i'm having pleasant dreams (recent one. i dreamt of a rich guy so in love with me. that he made me be his master. while him, the slave. haha. idk why but i'm touched by his moves. oh whatever)

when i'm with my awesome friends. or family.(not when they're being annoying)
or idk.

actually.....

why is it during school days. or even exams. i often blog but when it's the holidays, it's so hard to see me updating my stuffs. haha.
i just never know where to start.

too many wonderful things happened. (except the teaching experience. cos i can't teach primary 2 kids! seriously.) the 08A04 coolest poolside party ever. to museum. to NP visit. to shopping. to really long (double-deck!) bus rides. to halloweeeen! to manymany others.

ohgawd. when december comes. i will have to slowly stop the daily outings and start revising my stuffs. next year is so such a nightmare. why am i so pessimist. maybe i need more more motivation. but whattttt. okok i promised them not to talk about g.u.y.s anymore. oh is creepy considered a guy. haha. eh i'm suddenly so depressed. cos idk whatelse to write and i think i am soooo longwinded. which is bad.

and what's more. i was chatting with steph just now. she sounded like she's gona leave me or something. geez. my emotions can change real fast. ohyes shaf. we really have to make the communist blog like right away? atleast we can still share their stories in that and not let you just forget about us. bubu. ); even mad canoe is leaving. tsktsk. we've known each other since we're like 10years old. shizz why am i againnn so sad.

anyway THANKS for all the memories.

i shall post some photos here! smile people.

and darl. your email never fails to make me smile and say i love you again! heh.

BE HAIRPEE! EAT UP AND NEXT POST SHALL BE ON OBS? OR CHINA? WOOOOOTS~

Till then.

MUCH LOVE!

PHOTOOOOOOOOTS!

2008-10-27T20:33:00.009+08:00

TOES TOOTS. PHOOOOTOES!

hahaha. ok i'm just acting like a de-neng (retard).

bahahahaha. ok i'm being annoying. eh i'm uploading some of the longlong ago photos so yeay i'm nice and thank me! welcome and enjoyyyyyyy! (:

the night before first ramadan.

kevinnnnn, my monday? mei qian, shaf my sweethearts. ariz, handsome boy

that night when utt was there. the great great spy experiment was there. fuzz with dian. eat more dian! (; yeayyyyyy HAPPY DAY on the HUMAN RACE 2008!

Next, the AMA FUZZ SHAF's outings!
before using the dustbin as the stand.
after... before and after photos when this hot guy came and volunteered to help us snap the photos. i was like "omg. so hot." infront of him. -.- ok skip that part.
and so we ended the day with another photosss of us in the train.

i only could upload these photos from our expo craze shopping spree for now. haha.

the NUS but NTU place shaf and i went. thanks to a friend who gave us the wrong bus.

the chinese historic museum or something like that. we missed it! we actually got into the double decker bus! funfun.

tiring climbing into the woods? haha but love the smell of nature. look. how i wish i could go picnic with my ehem under that kind of tree.

amalina and fuzz(ignore my face) at bugisssssss after break fast. yumss.

last but not least. my boyfriend, DYLAN. the guy in blue. gawt tell me he is cute.

((((((((((: i'm in loveeeeeee.

fated to love you, devil beside you, my lucky star all watched.

next shall be what -kiss again? ?? haha. YEAY. after malay As and OP this friday. I'm gonna partee. cheryllll send me the bbq pics preaseeeeeee.

i think i did ok for my promos. only satisfied with maths. tsk ABBDU. ew.

SEE YOU! OH I LOVE DYLAN!

GIRLS STOP DROOLING. HE'S MINE!

HSM3 TOMORROW!!!!!!!!!!! wooooots~

manylove.

fuzz.

BIG T

2008-10-19T20:58:00.002+08:00

TIRED. TIRED. TIRED. TIIIIIIIIIIIRED!
old and young couples came. unhappy vs loving ones.
should everyone get married?

i actually msged gorbie yest.
he didnt reply.
fuzz. just. did. a. stupid. move.
hack care.
k bye.

let me breathe tomorrow. prease.

i am loved and i wish to share it

2008-10-18T00:59:00.005+08:00

i think i'm crazy. ttm.
here are some evidences:
1) watched K, J, T dramas straight 2-3 weeks non stop? slept only when my laptop needs to restart at 4. and had to wake up at 6++ and be late to school AGAIN. this time tsk detention.
2) don't eat whole day or eat whole day.
3) msged creepy and get insulted or flirt i can't figure which.
4) screwedddddd my OP. atleast i finished them though cos i thought i would instead just run out of the room with hair flying and a hero to comfort me? (tsk macam betul.)
5) msged gorbie and confessed. ok i did not achieve the 2nd part but yes he was all cute but still tsk he is younger fuzz.
6) deng ignored me! he abandoned me and now he doesnt even wants to look at me. (automatically turn his head when he noticed me) ouch! ))); if he looks, it'll be full of anger and hatred. whyy oh why. my fault.
7) i took too much photos. i don't exactly know what is my problem here but tskkkkkkkk i am weird.
8) walked by the forest in school uni in search for the holy hall of nus. who knows there might be wild animals or perverts hiding.
9) afraid of cats. they can make me shiver and tremble and even cry(literally).

anything that took place. i'm contented. but just felt that something is lost. what thing. i am clueless.
i seriously have no idea why i'm talking like this. but sincerely yes who cares. i'm happy the heavy stress are over or maybe not but i'm just pushing it away. still, it's gona be over soon i am bloody glad soon. ok what i need to do now..
-write up my OP script
-not skip anymore malay.

it amazed me how strong you are to be able to overcome and cover up all that deep killing sorrows and instead just portray your fake emotions. how i wish i could tell you that i'm here for you whenever you need me.

"A friend is a gift you give yourself"-ROBERT LOUIS STEVENSON

fa la la

2008-10-06T23:43:00.003+08:00

oops. i forgot.
selamat hari raya.

it just brings back too much memories.

here listen me.

2008-10-06T22:17:00.004+08:00

ok hello. i'm here to update?
idk just running away from PEEEEEE-DOUBLEUUU.
TSKTSKTSK.
can just go and die la.
looking at the timetable i feel like killing everyone.
especially peejay bitches.
wahlao.
missed the exams period where we get to go home early.
my tuesdays are like damn SHITTY REALLY SHIT ah.
an hour of MALAY! in the morning and another 3hours in the evening.
wtfishhhhhhyew.
gawd. PEEEEEEE-DOUBLEUUU will be like 2hours period from now on.
ehhhhhh can anyone feel my PAINNNNNNNNN.
i still have to do it though. get it over and done with.

anyway. ( p.s no S ok) ew.
painted skin? or painted mask? is not bad. catched that with my outing partners after video appreciation programme just now. mygawd. we were damn noisy criticising the movie in a good way? oh here's some photos we took on the way back to school. ( to meet yawyaw for latecoming) tsk. sorry my phone pms me. i can't bluetooth the photos. dayuuum!

falalalalala. jack and rai. came to peejay. awesomely awesome.

oh let's go watch se7en soon.
sign out.

);

2008-09-29T13:15:00.003+08:00

MANNNN! best BEST BESTTTTTTest movie ever.
i guess Japanese movies are better than Korean uh.
i sooooo love this. tsk. i teared a lot. (alone emo)
how i wish.......
i have that boyfriend but he isnt gonna die.
i wishhhhhhh. mann.
emoemoemoemoemo!!!!!!!!!
really touched me. damn.

FREEDOM yea.

2008-09-27T01:57:00.002+08:00

finally exams OVER!
yeayyyyyyy!!! (:
sleptover at my cuz's place last night. unknowingly know.
blablabla. was like a princess the whole day.
my dad helped me keep the clothes which mother folded for me.
while i was there on bed watching korean dramas! mygawd. from like 9am to 3pm.
then my new oven arrived! weeeee weeeeeet.
BAKING luh then.
damn shiok. lalalala. until now.
i had to bake 4x100 famous amos for those who ordered. mannn.
yums yums. i'm sooooooo freaking happy guys. the first try itself was a successss.
claps for me? B)

i just loveeee to bake. and oh. i took the orders for my fundraising to CHINA!
beijing huan yin ni!!!!!!! actually i'm going nanjing and shanghai.
ohhhhhyea. idk i'm just excited ok.
african drumming. swimming. bbq. beach. picnics. canoe. manymanyouting.
all on the waay. wooooh. (:

ok my oven is calling me.
good day mates!

p.s shamonkeys, if you are reading this, tell me if you guys going to the bbq or not ok.
oh for 08a04, tell me where to plan for outing pleasee.
OH! i still have yet to put up the photos of the n.s and nikerace. soon SOON yea!

YEAYYYYY! (:

the song -welcome to my life by simple plan.

2008-09-16T00:18:00.003+08:00

HELLO! this song has been replaying in my mind.
why is the font bolded? ahh shucks.

Song=life i'm going through now.
not beautiful.
have been sick.
been home crazy.
been blasted.
been getting shitty results.
been screaming inside.
been slapped in the heart.
been missing someone so badly.
been sick of everything.
oh crap.

one thing,
havent been studying.
when promos are like just days away.
what if i retain? what if i get kicked out?
what if..

bye:(:

2008-08-29T23:38:00.002+08:00

X says:and u know what?
X says:its ok
X says:dont meet for all i care
X says:i dont bloody give a damn anymore

hah. girls have you had yours?

the urge to slap someone anyone.

2008-08-29T22:40:00.002+08:00

i dont get it seriously. why am i even troubled by that. why am i even thinking of blogging about that. tsk. annoying selfish species. ohman. im pissed more than anything. get it over fuzz. over. over. overrrrrrr.

mann. anyhooo. generally today was awesome. totally fantastic. marvellous. great. whatever good adjectives to describe the day. i had lotsa fun. the screamings hugs kisses(mostly from cheryl syg) laughters! and photo takings. mann how i wish the minutes could pass like hours instead. hah.

in PJ. even though the walk was disgusting and ineffective(i mean since when did acers day become a strolling in the park session?except us along the canal and roads.), the concert was an entertaining one. thumbs up. even the teachers performed. cooliiioooolio. i love the dance. my jaws dropped by the dancers' flexbility. oh and most weirdest part of the concert was the part the guy sang solo with his friend strumming the guitar for him. i drooled. and was daydreaming(literally) im serious. haha. i didnt realise it was over only after he said thank you. mannnnn. haha. it was freaking weird. maybe his voice made me fell for him. heh. i wanna knowwww him.
(;

next weird thing was that my used-to-be-shy friend in primary school have totally changed! he could even get high on stage now! solo even! wth is happening man. hahas. im impressed. people really change huh. ohhh. another thing: azli had his car licence and a car now. he picked me up to rush back to hilly just now. repeat after me: COOL! i want my licence soon too. i HATE HATE EXTREMELY HATE public transports. they give me headaches. not the journey. but more of the waiting. mann.

in HILLY. aka hillgrovesec. met many of my peeps. like finally. after months of hearing nothing from them. i was like hugging every of my girlfriends. haha. took photo with hot MR FOO. awesome. cheryl freaks him out. heh. oh and manymany thanks to cheryl syg for the eclaire or pestacio? idk some p___ name of it. how sweet of her to bake them for me! to give me energy idk what blood circulation. haha. idc i just feel like blaberring nonsense. im just HAPPY! we had food. lotsa food. i miss the hilly burger but none of the stalls were open. hurhur.

my HOUSE. camwhored. screamed. HAHA. cheryl tried taking photos with her feet. stupid idea but best laughs. man. if only the other 2 monkeys were here too. xm so long havent see you. mas i still miss you. heeee. gawd. i shall leave now before things get off hand.

adioooos!

ohman. i forgot to blog about night safari! next post i guess. (;
muchloves, fuzz/fiza/faizah.

deng vs mikhail

2008-08-22T02:23:00.002+08:00

heeelllllll oh! hahs.
ok i might sound retarded but idc.
using abbrev cos tired. oh i missss blogging.
beaches. sleeping. baking.
you know i can bake really nice brownies and muffins and cookies. (:
but it's been long since i last baked. so sad. my skills may be rusty now.
ok crap crap crap again. idc.
let's go bowling and baking then to the beach.
ohyea i cant wait for raya to come. house visiting with dearest buddies and families.
pineapple tart. my favourite.
ohh rights why am i talking about about raya when it's not even fasting month yet.
not even promos yet.
let's not talk about promos.

yadayadayada.
i think i like him. and he likes me back.
heeeee. ok fuzz gone bonkers.
oh i love to cry in the late nights for no reasons.
how come. i also dontknow.
howwwwwwwww i wish if i can go out now to get a lovely dress.
and a cool handbag. idk. feel like i havent gone shopping for 3826253276years or more.
chey. idk what else to say.

sweetdreams^
h.e.a.r.t.s! <3333333333

*i hope prince charming will come soon to take me away from this torturous chamber.

random .

2008-08-17T01:42:00.007+08:00

TAMADE by kev

2008-08-17T01:29:00.002+08:00

i miss her. gawd. A LOT. ); ); ); ); );
how i wish she's here.
looking forward to next next year.
omg. smileee FUZZ.
stress level up high.
i miss brainless talks and late night phonecalls.
wth. hate school. tsk.
can the 2 novembers faster pass.
shitty emotions these days.
tired up easily.
i need 100years of sleep.
my eyebags are disgusting.
tsk tsk.
how i wish my real eric will come to save me from this torture.
geepee phobia is still there btw.
ohmy.
im off.
peace world.
kisses.

08-08-08

2008-08-08T20:29:00.002+08:00

today wasn't as great as expected.
late AGAIN. disorganised celebration. i fhgdjsghdjhsj felt like strangling those in-charge.
really sorry to my classmates who put in the effort. ETC.
i felt like gyming and running justnow. but the bloody cramps made me difficult to even walk properly. ass. slept like what 5 hours instead?
i want my past years back. those celebrations and people i missed most now. i dont want to sound like an emo-cant-move-on-with-life. just cant help it. omggggggg what's wrong with me. stop crapping FUZZ! stop crapping. stop crapping. stop crapping. be happy. everything's gona be fine. shit happens sometimes. whatever. tskkkkkkkkk forcing myself to (: i love my family!
haha randomness.

im trying not to take the dude's advice seriously.
i need a gay friend.

oh made a new friend. (: a guy not bad looking.
haha fuzz is just friendly!
beijinggggg!
the olympics fever. wohooooooooo.

bye.
xoxo haha!
oh yea ana still hasnt told me something.
im off.
<33333333333

obsessed with my chill pill.

2008-08-04T23:11:00.003+08:00

bananas. im sick.
today was awesome.
TSKK.
throat sore. dry cough. sneezing.
non-stop=irritating.
overdosed with blue and blacks.
*goodnight world.*

good news. not the cafe.

2008-07-23T23:40:00.003+08:00

yeay! we had a change of teacher. we have mr khoo for econs now. (:
whopee! whee! he is very comprehensive etc.

student council investiture event went ok.
i was just ushering and touring the other JC students.
i went for the the college tour with Temasek. omg.
okay. yadayada. i saw this pae-forgotten-name guy. he used to be the SC if im not wrong. but hey he came as a guest. and that is when i realised that i havent seen him ever since the end of pae. omg he looks korean+taiwan+hk. heh. okok. my nonsense again.

ohyea was tired of writing eom. so shaf and i took a break not with kitkat(haha lame). instead, we competed to search the photographs of the best looking guy EVER. haha. omg. i googled world's handsome guys and it turns out to be world's ugliest guys. im not being mean or what. but perhaps they think they are too handsome for that title? omg. ok shall not elaborate further. heh. i searched for korean guys! and found many. but still DENNIS OH is better. (: i post his photo in the next post ok?

xxx today everyone like so emotional unstable. and i swear ass just made me feel like killing him just now. i am serious. omg. he kicked my bloody chair so hard. eh hello? of course i am NOT happy. idiot. rude dude. whatever. ):
anyway. my class is getting more serious in their studies. no more pon-ers. talk about pon-ers, i am the only one in class who hasnt skipped a day of my peejay life yet. (:

tired. that's all.
baaaabbbbbbyyyyyeeeeee.
<3

whopee!

2008-07-23T00:33:00.002+08:00

hello monster! HAHA.
i dont know why. just kept acknowledging almost everything as monster.
oh. maybe because of history. i get so frustrated by the bloody what ba maw. kept cursing him for being an idiot in the history of burma. oh wells. i cant stop smiling and yawnnnning now.
hey! i'm bucking up now. did a little econs and history just now. oh i stayed for night studies just now. it was nice. haha. i think i did much studying today. because my econs and china teacher didnt come and so use the free period to study. weeeeeee.

btw guys. asking people to do survey just makes my day. haha! omg. seriously. okay shall not elaborate. lalalala. the cute art guy is attached! but yea its okay. i just find him cute. nothing else. and moni. YES! IM SO GONA TAKE THAT CHALLENGE. HAHA. YOU DONT HAVE TO ASK CLIFF RIGHT. LIKE OMG. AND STOP THE *british accent* HAHA. <3333333333 you too!

rasa sayang eh rasa sayang sayang eh. zzzz
can i go sleep now. i cant remember what else to say shit. too many things happened.
from this guy to that guy. hahaha. kidding. T.T
i want to go ikea. to buy highlighters. ):
who wants to go with me. heh. people have sex cos of boredom? how great.
haha. okay. cheers people!
i am gona have an early night.
omg. first period ECONS LECTURE. then GEEPEE.
omg. shall die painfully. see which hero comes first. haha. well.
have to get rid of the phobia shit.
i'm enjoying life.
(((((((((((:

ADIOSAMOSAIWANTOEAT.

wohooooooo CHEWYCHEWY

2008-07-19T19:24:00.007+08:00

im sooooooo in love. love is in the air. heeeeheeee.

say hello to my new bf. he is korean! (: awww. girls stop drooling! he is MINE.

... im just so high.

ohyea yesterday i followed dian and nadiah to jurong primary for a program to experience becoming a teacher. omg! the teachers there are damn friendly! even the principal! she insisted in taking my photo. i mean ours. hahahaha. they didnt know i was just there for fun not really involve in it. omg. wookie. i learnt a lot of things there i tell you. specialities of every students. there are selective mutism students etc. the teaching system has totally changed! omg. the teach less learn more thingy has certainly made learning more interesting. unfairness. but still. guess what. taufik wanted to take photo with me there. he was an ex student in jpp. (:

heh.

ohmy. you have to know this. my friends and i just discovered our peejay school ART room.

holyman. it is uberly cool. small but spacious room. haha! okay it is just restricted for art people. but the door was left opened a little so i peeped. Then, this cute (omg im serious. super cute) guy asked ,"may i help you" (giving that im-really-nice look) omg! he is hot. haha. pj girls go figure who is that guy. hahahaha. and yea i almost fainted but just smiled casually (trying to act cool) and replied, "ohoh. nono. justjust checking out this room. sososo cool." couldnt remember he reaction because i was so high flying. hahas! okay so snap photo. and yea. here it is....

okay. i gave up. it is the first picture. im still not good in posting the photos i guess. =/

goodnight world. chewychewy.

a little confused

2008-07-16T19:53:00.003+08:00

i just miss her a lot. lots and lots. but she isnt coming back. i just hope everything is going on fine for her there. moni. i admire you a lot darling. i just so love you. cant help but reminiscing the good times we had. real good time. you hang in there ok. i cant help wondering if whatever in your blog is true. but still keep the DELTA spirit in you yea. (: and remember you still have me here. (:

sigh. my internet connection was spoilt the last 2 days. and i had to do researches in school library. frustrated. spent my whole half hour break just to get a webpage open. freaking damn slow connection. i kept cursing the computer but still it have no reaction. sad. oh baseball was great. but tired. ass hates me i guess. hit me twice! and it was painful i nearly cried. haha. exaggerating.

i think i am loving CHINA so much now. beijing huang ying ni means beijing welcomes you. i cant help singing the song because it kept repeating in my mind and everyone loves it. (: most interesting lesson is china studies.

how i wish you were here to go crazy with me. laugh like nobody's business. and gossips and cry and do the faces with me. shit. smile. talking about gossips. there is someone who gave a very bad impression to me. wanted to talk bad about my class. my classmates. hello? they may not be the perfect class everyone wants to be in but they are still nice people. needs to get to know them better then you can judge. i seriously find some people weird. looks so nice and friendly but it turns out to be a black banana or whatever it is. rude.

...i so feel like drinking green tea now. my stomach went crazy today. and i have been running to school every morning recently. almost late. everyday. sigh. btw you know it is really cute and funny seeing a huge crowd running with their bags. like fast and far distance. haha. just to get in school on time. ohyea. stayed in school till 6 justnow. and played SIMS the whole time. in school when everyone was busy studying! haha. no idea what is wrong with me. btw im curious. how can anyone get so high for econs? it is like so tough. the essay. omg i must start revising my stuffs soon. oh yea. im gona have my malay listening compre a-levels tomorrow. i hate the listening. always dont understand. due to the slowness i always fell asleep while the exam was on.

i miss blogging. heh. chewychewy gorbachev died so fast. randomly struck by lightning or what death monster. haha. i bet no one understand what im talking about. oh wells. i hope everyone had a good day cos i just had mine. (: haha.
much love.
cheers.

Mac fries.

2008-07-14T00:05:00.002+08:00

I feel like eating mac fries ah.
omg. i've been super alot lately and exercise super little. shit. anywayyy. i think it is better if you go away yea. and so i wont be reminded of everything. shit. real crappish. argh. okay i'm sorry guys. just emo abit maybe due to too much of the guilty feeling for not doing any academics stuffs this whole weekend. didn't expect it to pass so fast. fuzz. fuzz. oh man. i need a hug now. for comfort and yea the coldness is gona freeze me to death. sigh. stop thinking of the..

okay. today! i met the SHAMONKEYS!(minus xm) sad! she couldnt make it for no reason. it must be wenqin's fault lah for FORGETTING to inform xm of the venue and time. ishish. heh. anyway. GREAT day i tell you. okay maybe just a little awkward when everyone went quiet after laughing our hearts out. okay haha. it was supposed to be cheryl's belated birthday party but it turns out to be more like our girls stuff session. like hello. random movies.(mas: choose an alphabet each and so we watch that movie) haha. manicure. pedicure. life updates!(omg. i love this most. okay as you know our sharing session about guys in our schools. we are all from different schools anyway. mas even showed us a video of her class guys. and its like only 3girls in her class? omg. i so totally want to be there. heh.) ohmy. many others. love them. sigh. if only the stoner xm was there too. it will certainly be more more fun.

i learnt a lot today. i love god. thank god. and will do everything for Him. im sick now. not literally. maybe just the heart. okay whatever it is i shall tell myself tomorrow is a new bright sunny beautiful awesome day. (: ohya. motivator for school tomorrow: history lecture. (winks)
ohman. real long day tomorrow. but still. yeay! looking forward for baseball-ing too. (((:

hugs and kisses.
goodnight peeps.
<3<3<3

YIPPEEEE! (:

2008-07-12T20:53:00.001+08:00

OH LOVES. LOVELIES. LOVING. LOVE LOVE. ETC.
Hahahaha! Im so loving it.
I PASSED MY HISTORY! OMG!
Not an E even. It's a C!
((((((:
~flying.
Heeehehee.
You don't know how happy i am.
Mr Ng told us in lecture that he will be pinning our marks at 12pm.
But supposedly my pw lesson will only end at 12.30.
But we just couldnt wait to cancel our names in case others see our lowest U marks...
But we didn't! Cause we fare quite well. okay it is near to excellent as most of the other history students did not pass. ):
wooohooo! im seriously more motivated to study.
Maybe try to get a B by promos? haha.
(: im just smiling. and heart jumping for joy.
ohmy.

OHOH. im sorry to tricia and her pw group.
maybe i shall name them. shafiqah, dian, danny, jia yi and bernice.
really sorry guys. forgive me yea? if you dearies are still angry with me then i'd rather just jump down. you guys made my days in peejay. shared my sorrows. made me smile when i'm down.
hug me when i need it most. and like everything. please i need you guys yea. or i will die painfully in peejay. ): oh yea. i forgot about the sweets to keep me awake in boring lectures. hehe. oh and checking out on guys. gorbachev!!! so hot.
okay i shall stop that. haha.

well. well. where are the monkeys.
we are supposed to be online now to discuss on our plans for tomorrow. aiyo.
none of them is there. anyway overall my results are bad i guess. i got every grades except S.
coolness yea? haha. im starting to LOVE CHINA alot. yes. i am very serious. China is getting more fun eventhough the memorising is a killer. But still i think loving it may help in my memorising right? i'm not sleeping in classes anymore! hopefully it will continue as that for my next 9weeks. after promos im so gona have my holidays. now, STUDY. i have a lot of things to do. Improve on my sentence structure, language, not quote for econs, not be careless for maths. Plus note never leave any topics unrevised before coming for the papers. i have learnt from my mistakes. yea. adding oil and accelerate from now onwards.

..........today when to kampung glam. to find raya cloths? but they were just the typical lacey kinds. nothing new. ended up with nothing. had dinner at geylang and headed home. food was great! i had ayam penyet. yums man. outing with my family is so fun. even when it just means sitting in the car because we have no idea where to go. haha. they are my life. my world. and pillar of success. (: love my family a lot.
haha. i remembered dian in class,''i miss my family!'' out of a sudden you know.
damn hilarious. our whole row laughed like crazy. (((:

life is really unpredictable. sometimes we fell as if we are flying so high and looking forward to great things while sometimes we feel like sleeping and never to wake up.
yea. ironic. okay people, im off now.
i just love blogging. it makes me go woooo.

a smile for the world. (:
goodbye.

keep believing and try twice as hard yea?

2008-07-10T23:37:00.000+08:00

im saying this again. no more mass suicide.
it's only the mids. they wont kick you out even if you get straight Us right?
omg. study harder and we will together survive through guys!
my class is not that bad afterall. just that we arent that bonded.
(ohyea. i have to think of an outing which hasnt happen for our class yet. soon yea? still planning. better if there is any suggestions.)
my classmates! they were sadly planning for a mass suicide and promoting to whoever who gets Us to join them.
an example of a planning is that everyone is to die at the exact same timing but at different locations. haha. so we will hit the first page headlines and interesting investigations will be conducted on our suicides.
funny! ok im neutral. if many wants to participate then i guess i will follow the flow?
(:

ohyea. late to school. thought it was raining and so it is still acceptable for latecoming on rainy days. however, they changed the rules. ):

P.E was fun today. eventhough we still had to run(i've been failing 2.4 and undergoing P.E remedials btw). we played softballs! whee~
like finally we are playing games instead of running running jumping and run again.
yeah! and next lesson we are gona learn how to play baseball. AWESOME!

anyway. i think im loving malay cos of 2 reasons. mostly because of Gorbachev. haha! secondly because i actually got A for malay! definitely happy and wishing hoping praying that i will get that for my As. (: tomorrow getting back history which i know i am gona die. 99% sure.
we will see. hope there is like some miracle on the way to pass me.
okay lovelies. im leaving now.
manyloves.

adios.

when trying wasnt enough

2008-07-09T22:27:00.000+08:00

Argh.
feeling like shit the whole day.
teared infront of mdm lai.
):
i felt so bad. im ashamed. i have let my parents. teachers. and friends down.
omg. i was seriously thinking of quitting school for a moment just now.
it seems like i have wasted my bloody time of months in jc but still couldnt achieve anything yet.
academics gone haywire. everything changed.
im not happy. i miss my old life. shit.

lalalalala.
im gona try to be positive.
oh maybe my mugging wasnt enough yet.
yea. stepping stone to success. sigh.
keep believing and trying.
im tired.
i had too much icecreams at night. bad but helpful.

green monster. i hearts you. (:

im tired. ):

2008-07-09T02:20:00.000+08:00

ohlove. im tired. tired. tired. and tired.
i got lotsa things to share! but, too tired to type. ):
okay. but one thing i must really say is that i got a mail from england!
my bf there. oh envy me people. envy me.
(i sound like drunkard woman) ohmy. so wrong.
okay. i miss her you know.
okay. haha. oh yea! i pass CHINA!
can celebrate already.
ohmy. she went off so fast.
didnt get to pass love from s'pore.
okay. i want to sleep.
sayonara. still finds blogging fun.
<3333333333
zzz

FIRST post.

2008-07-07T21:34:00.000+08:00

My first say. Im not happy as you know school starts tomorrow. )): I dont think i've had enough rest yet. Argh. So fast! The June holiday wasnt much fun indeed. Back to school like almost everyday of the first 2 weeks! And 3rd week of little rest plus video editing. 4th week had to mug and consultation and stuffs. Ohmy. Exams was not as fun as i thought it is because i couldnt do like everything! Haha. My results will be out atleast by end of this week? I just hope and hope that it wont be as bad as straight Us. Ohman. Im just gona kill myself if that happens!

Okay. Okay. I am going to be optimistic now.
Let me share with you some cool events i've went through recently.
-MOE excel fest! It was kind of painful. The long standing hours wearing that cot shoes. But still, the guys i just made friends with made the evening a great one! (: thanks guys! and of course my darlings, shaf, dian and crystal. (:
-oh before that was the pw workshops and australian maths. It wasnt cool or interesting or whatever but it was funny! I mean the australian maths. There were H2 J1s and even J2s! Can you just imagine. Omg. Im like not up to their kind of maths yet hello? Haha. I dont understand a crap. Seriously. So demoralising. But yea boost morale by going shopping with dear amalina after that. Tell me how cool is that. Hee. Pw was okay just sad for Keefey. ):
-I cant remember whatelse. Oh. The RP visit after testimonials collection. Nothing much to crap on that just that i met my dearies Massy, Nada and Clara and friend redzuan. (: 5 years of friendship i shall treasure.

Ohyea. Penelope i like. Maybe just because they have the handsome guy starring. (:
And youth day this year was fun due to the Click Five show! (: Oh i love it.
Kidnap my heart....
Blogging is kind of fun i realise. Much loves! (((: