am i gona die soon?
i just got that feeling. prolly the pacing just makes me sick and breatheless?
idk. i cant think. i just need to talk. if it was meant to be this difficult, why are there still people taking this exact path? true. but i just felt...almost drained. the late nights. and isolation for hours.
okokokokok. come on. i have to be motivated. get the spirits up! (;
come on. just 3 freako months and yadah. everything else can wait.
pick yourself up fuzz. and whoever's reading this. move on. give your all.
the rest leave it to god's will.
olah. k im better and i have to get back kicking peeps.
loves~

o.g. left with a week.and i cant recall whatever i studied for in this hols.
omg. im gna die. srsly. how. idk. ohass. breathe. k i need to calm down.
concentrate. 3months only. kstudy now. ahhhhhhhh........... im not screwed. nono.
bye.

ohmybombs.
I AM SO DEAD BORED.
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i need you to feel my pain.
my skin is burnt. and this smokey sensation.
k it's just sunburnt and it's super ugly. tsk.
and due to the pain i cant belarhdy sleep when my eyebags look like zombie's.
and i'm not HAPPY!
i got nagged at for reasons that i didnt know existed.
uh. k. whatever ahhh.
and it's 1am and i've got chores to do. awesome.

okay. on the bright side. the class cip initiated by moi class at spore botanic garden today was a success! TOTALLY. the kids were angels. and made me want to have those but having to go through the whole pregnancy process and marriage thing is too serious and scary. anyway that's another thing. they're really fun! sighhh. i'm starting to missssss them ttvvvm now already. yeahhh. haha. but. there's this one member in my group who is so bitchy but maybe because she's under-priviledged hence she's abit greedy and overprotective? idk. but i'll totally remember them. especially this sab girl's line, "kbye. seeyou next year." hahaha. klah this is boringggg.

LOVES.

high! (:


now, i feel like playing arcade or some real life thrills on the roller coaster.
when i'm so tired...
how i wish i could feel history now. like how all the world wars and tensions came about. why economies this and that. and why the parties involved just have to act that way. you know like study them. not just argue on the origins. and whatnot effects etc. i want to talk about the characters. haha.
knvm.

glad i found you.
you-know-who. (HAHA-inside joke)
nighto.

life is great afterall~

love hate bye. hi.











there are many things i want to get off my chest lately but i just couldnt find the right time to do it. well. it concerns about many things. how sad that i have to give up a friendship which have been bonded for the past six years. and besides, studies. and everything. it just bothers me.

but for now, i'm just constantly going to remind myself why bother. why get myself all so emotional and heartbroken. and losing hope. and trying hard to fix back my past puzzle when in actual fact i have to look forward and move on. why bother. just oh shit wth and carry on.

well. maybe i always thought i've been lucky. to have really many good friends around, fabbbb family. and all i need to do is share the joy and meet more new people. when only now. only now. that it hits me. that it isn't just like that. there's more. but i'm lazy to elaborate here. hahah. cosss let's look at the greener side! treasure what you have now.

oh BTW.
does anyone knows where to get a kite?
i need to fly a kite soon badly. it's like a wake-up from sleep kind of mission that you must accomplish. k idk how and why. but i think i dreamt about myself joining a kite flying competition that as soon as i woke up there's this sudden urge of FLY KITEEEE! hahah.

next. it's almost a week gone from the hols but it hasn't felt anything like a hol at all! instead. it feels more stressful and a very much hectic week compared to the typical school days. ohgosh. can you imagine. i ACTUALLY mugged for maths! for 3 days 2 nights! still. sadly. i couldn't do part of the paper. my pure still sucks like shizzzel. oh but i can still work on that right? there's never too late for anything fuzzzzz. i'm sounding sooooo william. lols.

can't wait for siloso, bird park, and kite flying!!
k whatelse. till then. BYE!

loves.
"Believe that life is worth living and your belief will help create the fact." William James.